I hurt my own feelings constantly. I always hurt the people around me and want them to stay with me. I hate this. Why am I like this? Maybe I'm meant to be alone forever? I need to try harder. I worry my family and I Ignore the warnings my friends give me. Everyone tries so hard and all I do is ignore them. My mom is worried that I'm not eating enough. {my friend} Keeps telling me things will get better if only I truly work on myself and in the end, all I did was make him upset. I want to give him space but not talking to him feels nerve-wracking. I hate it. I want to make everyone feel better but that seems so hard. every time I try all I do is mess things up. Is there another way to fix things? Is there some magical way I can make everyone feel better? I honestly don't know if I truly deserve to have friends. Why is this so hard..?
