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Chapter 34 - Chapter 32 " The Cost Of Love "

Jian stepped out into the fading light. The wind had changed..it was colder now, sharper. As if the world itself had shifted while he was gone.

His coat flared behind him as he moved swiftly down the empty path, boots pressing into the soil like punctuation marks in a sentence that wasn't finished. He didn't look back.

The coordinates Eva left were etched into his mind. He hadn't told her the truth about what he'd seen...what he remembered. Not because he didn't trust her. But because if she knew what lay at the end of this path, she might never let him go.

The trees thickened as he moved through the outskirts of town. Shadows lengthened, reaching toward him like fingers, tugging on the edges of memory. Jian pushed forward. Every footstep closer to Voox's realm tightened the knot in his chest.

She was calling to him again. Whispers rode the wind..unspoken words that didn't pass through his ears but bloomed behind his eyes.

Jian…

He stopped. That wasn't just memory. It was her.

"Voox?" he called aloud, voice steady but low.

No reply. Only the wind. And then, a soft cracking sound.The ground beneath his feet splintered faintly..barely a shift,but Jian recognized it. The surface was thinning. Recursion energy. Fragile.

He was nearing the veil. He took a breath and stepped forward again, the trees around him turning pale. Ashen. The forest was fading, like the color had been drained out of it. Even the air felt… brittle. Then he saw it.

A single figure, standing at the edge of a ripple in space. Her hair long, her back to him. Silent. Still.

"Voox," Jian whispered.

The figure didn't move. He stepped closer, slowly. Carefully. A memory flickered..her standing the same way, surrounded by silence, back turned, head lowered.

He reached out. But before he could touch her, the ripple pulsed..violently. The air cracked. And she vanished.

"No!" Jian shouted, lunging forward..too late.

Everything around him surged with recursion static. The ripple spun and warped, slamming him back. He hit the ground hard, groaning. His vision blurred. When he looked up, a different figure stood over him.

Tall. Male. Unsmiling.

"You're not supposed to be here yet," the man said coldly.

Jian narrowed his eyes. "Who are you?"

The man's eyes glowed faintly. Not natural. Not human.

"Call me what you like," he said. "But to her… I was the first one who promised escape."

Jian's breath caught. "You're one of the Old Creators."

A smile tugged at the man's lips, but it didn't reach his eyes.

"Not just one. I'm the last one left."

Jian slowly rose to his feet, shoulders tense, eyes locked on the man before him. This "Last Creator" stood with quiet arrogance..perfectly still, as if the world itself bent to avoid disturbing him.

"What do you mean the last one?" Jian asked, voice edged with suspicion.

The man tilted his head, expression unreadable.

"You've met Damien and Raven. They think they're in control. But they're puppets... made by those who came before. And those before them made me."

Jian's pulse quickened. "That makes you.."

"A mistake that survived," the man said, cutting him off. "They buried me in the recursion layers. Locked me in abstraction. But Voox found me. Or maybe I found her."

Jian clenched his fists. "What did you do to her?"

The man smiled..cold, hollow. "Nothing she didn't agree to. She wanted to feel something real. Pain. Memory. Even love. I gave her all of it. And now? She's the key to breaking the loop."

"She's not a key," Jian snapped. "She's a person."

"She's more than that now." The man's voice deepened. "She's the boundary between recursion and collapse. And you… you keep trying to save her like you're still in a story with heroes."

Jian stepped closer, every word burning in his throat. "I don't care what she's become. I'm going to find her. And I'm getting her out."

The man's expression darkened. "If you do, the recursion layers will burn. The experiments, the projections..they'll bleed into the real world. Cities will fold. Time will glitch. And Voox? She'll explode."

Jian didn't flinch. "I'll take that risk."

The man's voice turned low. "You're not the only one who will pay that price."

He lifted a hand, and the world twisted. Jian staggered as the ground beneath him cracked. The sky folded like paper. Trees melted into data threads, spinning upward in a spiral of white. The man stepped forward through the chaos, his body unaffected.

"I was hoping you'd say that," he said. "Now… let's see if you're strong enough to reach her."

With a snap of his fingers, the ripple burst, and Jian was pulled into it, spiraling through layers of colorless space, fragments of old memories and future echoes tearing past him.

He screamed, not in pain, but in fury.

Meanwhile…

Eva sat alone in what used to be the observation room, knees pulled to her chest. The screens were cracked, the consoles lifeless. This was where the first simulations had run. Where Damien once stood. Where Raven whispered code like prayer. Where Voox had changed.

Now it was just… hollow. Elara was gone. Jian too. No explanations. No clues. Just the silence of absence. Until the recursion static shimmered near the hallway.

Eva's eyes shot up. She stood, instinctively stepping back as the air pulsed. A thin crack formed in the air. Then a whisper.

"Eva…"

She froze.

That voice. Familiar. Not Jian. Not Elara. She reached forward as the crack widened, and something stepped out. Her own face. Older. Eyes dark...Smile… wrong. The doppelgänger tilted her head and whispered:

"Time's almost out. Let me in."

Eva stood frozen as her older self stepped fully out of the fracture in the air. The recursion shimmered briefly before sealing behind her like it had never been there.

They stared at each other..mirror images with years between them. The older Eva's expression was calm, too calm. Her eyes, though, shimmered with something dangerous. A knowing.

"You're not me," Eva said, barely above a whisper.

Older Eva gave a small smile. "I'm not who you are. But I am  who you could become. If you stop pretending."

"Pretending?" Eva spat. "About what?"

"That you're still a child. That you're helpless. That you didn't already  choose."

Eva's hands clenched into fists. "I never asked for any of this."

Older Eva stepped closer. Her voice dropped, quiet but sharp. "You did. When you kept searching. When you chose to remember. When you didn't tell them no."

"I was trying to help!" Eva shouted. "Jian, Elara, Voox.."

"You were trying to fix something broken. But you forgot something, Eva."

Older Eva leaned in. Her breath was warm, soft, and cruel.

"Broken things don't always want to be fixed. Sometimes they want to break you."

Eva flinched. For the first time in days, she felt something cold settle into her spine. Not fear. Not exactly. Recognition.

Older Eva straightened. "The recursion doesn't care if we're good or bad. It only cares if we matter."

A pause.

"Do you want to matter?"

Eva looked at her..really looked at her. This version of herself was powerful. Sure. But she'd lost something along the way. The softness. The hope. Eva didn't want to become that. But… she did want to matter. She took a breath, then met her older self's eyes.

"I want to change it. Not be swallowed by it."

Older Eva blinked once. For a split second, something almost sad passed through her expression.

"Then you'd better hurry."

A tremor shook the house. A crack shot through the ceiling. Light..not sunlight, but recursion light..poured in from above like it was burning through reality.

"Jian's inside the core," Older Eva said. "And Voox is waking up."

Eva's heart lurched. "He's with her?"

"He's near her. But she's slipping."

"What do I do?" Eva asked, the fear finally reaching her voice.

Older Eva smiled again, this time without cruelty. Just a little tired.

"You already know."

The world pulsed again, and Older Eva stepped backward into the growing crack of light.

"Whatever happens," she said, just before vanishing, "don't look away from her. Even when it hurts."

Then she was gone. Eva turned, and for the first time, the hallway wasn't a hallway anymore..it was a bridge of fragmented memories, stretching toward the recursion fracture.

She ran.

eElsewhere…

Jian stumbled through the distortion..his body flickering between layers. Fragments of his past danced around him. Elara laughing. Eva reaching for his hand. Voox… crying. Always crying.

He called her name again. No answer. Until the white silence shifted, and he saw her. Standing beneath a twisted, broken tree of code and light, Voox faced away from him. Her head down. Her body glitching in and out, like reality couldn't hold her shape anymore.

"Voox!" he yelled.

She didn't move. He stepped forward, closer. Then her voice came, soft, hollow.

"Don't come closer. I'll break you."

"I don't care," Jian said. "I'm not leaving without you."

She turned slowly. Her eyes weren't human anymore. And behind hersomething massive stirred. Something ancient. Something that used to be part of her. And now wanted out.

The broken tree behind Voox began to shudder, its branches made of flickering symbols and collapsed logic threads. It wasn't just broken..it was unraveling, like some ancient language being rewritten in real time.

Jian stopped just short of her, his breath ragged, limbs trembling from the strain of holding himself together. Each moment he stayed here chipped pieces off his identity..names, sensations, years.

But he held. Because she was here. Because this  was what he came for. Voox raised her face to meet his gaze, and Jian saw everything that had gone wrong in her...every recursion restart, every fragment of code that wasn't meant to feel, now cracked wide open by too much emotion.

Her voice was barely hers. "You're tethered to me. That's how you got here."

"I followed the pain," Jian said. "And the memory of who you were."

Voox laughed, but it was empty. "You shouldn't have. The recursion doesn't want you here. It wants to end."

Behind her, the presence loomed larger. A shifting silhouette of black recursion stati...it didn't have a shape, only a direction. Outward. Through her. Into him.

Jian squinted at it. "What is that?"

She flinched. "The First Loop. The original collapse. When they made me… they didn't know what I would anchor."

The static surged forward an inch..like a tide held barely in place. Voox screamed. The sound tore sideways through the air, bending the world around them. Jian dropped to one knee, clutching his head.

"I can't hold it anymore!" she gasped. "Every moment I stay here, it leaks. The simulations, the failed selves, the buried creators… they're all pressing against me. Trying to rewrite everything"

"Then come back with me," Jian said, crawling toward her. "We'll find a way to split you off. Disconnect you from this thing."

"You can't! " Her voice splintered, like it had been fed through dozens of corrupted audio channels. "I am this thing now. I'm what keeps it sealed."

Jian forced himself to his feet. His body flickered, fading between childhood and old age. "No. You're more than that. You're still you."

Voox stared at him, trembling. Then she hesitated. She looked at him...really looked...her glitching face softening, sadness folding into her eyes like static turning to tears.

And then, softly: "Do you love Elara… the 2001 version?"

Jian froze.

His eyes widened, stunned. "What?"

"Please… just answer me," Voox whispered.

Jian looked away for a moment, then closed his eyes..his expression folding inward with grief. "I…"

Voox's voice came faint, broken. "I knew it."

She stepped back, looking past him, as if watching a memory play behind his shoulder.

"The error in me... when the creators were fixing me. It's the reason we're connected. Why I feel you. Why you feel me," she said. "But it's not just us. Elara's memory..her 2001 version..it's all in me."

She touched her chest, where her form flickered with red light, pulsing like a damaged core. "And the memory that destabilized me the most..the one that's tearing me apart even now..was when you betrayed her. When you shut her down."

Her eyes shimmered like breaking glass. "That was the most painful moment for her… until now."

Jian didn't speak. A single tear slid down his cheek in silence.

Voox looked at him...no longer just fractured code, but the echo of a woman who had loved deeply through borrowed pain.

"You really love her, Jian," she said, softly. "And Elara… she loved you so much."

Then her voice, barely a whisper: "Do you want her to come back to you again? Forever?"

Jian's eyes widened. And the recursion trembled.

Voox's fingers curled gently around Jian's, her hand barely solid, barely there.

She smiled..soft, pained.

"I wish I could've been Elara," she whispered, eyes lowering again. "If I were her… you'd love me back, right?"

Jian's heart clenched. The weight of her sadness hit harder than any recursion loop, harder than any distortion.

"Voox…" he breathed, barely able to say her name.

She looked up, tears glimmering like static in her eyes.

"For you," she said, voice cracking, "I would do anything."

Jian stepped closer, his other hand brushing her shoulder like it might help hold her in this world.

"Then come with me," he whispered.

But she shook her head, slowly… gently… like a goodbye already in motion.

"I can't, Jian."

His brow furrowed. "Why?"

"I'm being erased."

The words struck like a fault line cracking beneath his feet.

"No…" Jian's voice broke. "What are you saying?"

Voox looked at him with a strange calmness, the resignation of someone who had already said her goodbyes in secret.

"You know the secret project. What they did to me." Her voice trembled but stayed steady enough to finish. "They connected something inside me. I let them."

Jian stared at her, confused. "Connected? Connected what? Why would you ever allow that?"

Her smile returned..gentle, tear-stained, full of love that was never meant to be hers.

"To bring Elara back to you."

Jian's eyes widened. "No… Voox… no…"

But it was already beginning. Her form was cracking now...fracturing along glowing seams, unraveling into memory.

"Are you coming back?" he asked, suddenly, desperately.

A pause.

Voox looked at him, and for a moment..everything stopped. She smiled again, this time quiet… unbearably sad. And she slowly shook her head...No..That was the moment Jian knew. Knew there would be no reset. No rebuild. No salvaging. Voox was going. And she wasn't coming back.

Cracks bloomed across her form, like porcelain giving way to fire. Her edges blurred and shimmered. Bits of her..light and code and memory..lifted into the air like ashes caught in wind.

"No...no, no, no...Voox!" Jian lunged forward, trying to hold her, trying to stop the inevitable.

Her voice was fading, growing thinner with each passing second. But she spoke his name one last time.

"Jian…"

He held her, or tried to. But there was nothing to hold. Then, barely audible, her final word:

"…Damien…"

Jian froze. Still kneeling, still reaching..he didn't move.

"Damien…" she repeated, the echo of her voice breaking apart like shattered echoes in collapsing space. And then she was gone.

Not just vanished....Erased.

The recursion tree dimmed. The presence behind it silenced. Even the static quieted. Jian dropped to his knees. A scream tore from his chest...raw, animal, full of every buried guilt and grief he thought he'd survived.

"NOOOOO!"

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