The more I live these days without you, the longer they seem to be. Regardless of how hard I'm trying, I just can't get you off my mind. I've tried to tell you how I felt once before, but all of that failed because you didn't feel the same way. After that I was devastated, but I didn't want to give up. I told you I'd be alright with remaining as friends, but you had a different agenda. You agreed to remain friends, but soon after you stopped talking to me because things got "awkward" for you. You never took the time to talk to me about what was wrong even though I didn't hesitate to talk to you. Once we started talking again I was curious as to what changed, and how I would feel. At first, I said I had no feeling for you anymore, but later that had all changed. For a second time the feelings I had for you had risen to the surface, but rather than letting it be known, I hid it all inside of me.I didn't want to make the same mistake I made the first semester again, so rather than telling you how I felt verbally/directly, I tried to take the indirect route and use Facebook to get it all out. I thought that by using Facebook you would've found out how I truly felt and said something about it, but instead you seemed to remain clueless. Maybe you saw the statuses I made and just chose not to say anything? Maybe you saw the statuses and you knew they were about you, but you just didn't care? Maybe you've never even seen the statuses because you haven't been on Facebook, and this whole time I've spent being upset with you for not saying anything was pointless? Whatever the case may be, I don't care anymore. You've shown no interest in me at all, and you tell everyone that I'm the problem. Regardless of how much I adored you, it's gotten me nowhere with you. Our friendship wasn't a mistake no matter what you think of it, but you're just to blind to realize what was right in front of you this whole time. I would like it if you came back to the school, but we both know that's asking too much. So have fun wherever you end up, and I'll try to act as though you've never existed (just like old times)...
