(Content warning: this part of the novel contains explicit content that is not suitable for young readers)
Few minutes past
I'm going home now its getting dark, I need to give this dead wolf's to my father I... feel sorry for doing it... because I can't bury them to give them respect and peace because I know the prayer I offer is still not enough but even I want to do that i can't because, I don't want to happened again what happened two years ago I can't feel my body due to penalty I received back then from my father because he think I sale them and solo the money.
A dead body of wolf's are really expensive know a days but to be accurate and true I don't sell them I bury them using my own hands Birds and tree's know that. but what can I do if he doesn't hear me even I explaining the truth...
Few minutes past
(Walking steps)
Shit... my arms and back sting's go legs were almost there, This dead wolf's are really heavy but i... need to keep going ah...
Heavy breath
I'm glad I can see now our house in this distance, as I approach in our house I see my father talking to someone.
Light breath
Foot steps
when I get close to my father and see who's he talking to I.. surprised because it is Mang Basilio, he is well known from our district to be one of the best wildlife Hunter he really likes hunt wolf so I know that he buy quickly the wolf I carrying in my back, when he see me as expected he say.
" Hey kiddo that's wolf's right you well done killing them hey do you want me to buy it? "
When I hear it I want to attempt to speak but my father quickly say something, so i quickly pull my tongue and choose to be silent, I do this because he get mad and surely beat me if I interrupt what lies he plan to say again, and of course he surely does because what he said is.
" My friend Basilio I just want to clear that my son are not the one who killed that wolf's but only me I just command him to fetch these wolf and after he successfully fetch them we go to your house and try to sale this to you right son. "
Nods
My father always do this he take all the glory and the good credits in my doing, but to say the truth, I'm not saying but he is a coward one-time in one occasion we see an group of boars raging in a forest the boar notice us and attack us, what my father do is he quickly climb a tall tree toss his bolo in the ground and angrily say to me to kill the raging boar and of course I did the job I kill them all, but in that moment there's at back on my mind strongly saying what a mother f*ck*r weak person that man I recognizing as a father.
(Mang Basilio convince and say)
" My friend (phone rings) it Sims like I need to go but after I go I'm going to buy your catch it's all six and each one cost one thousand so all of this are cost six thousand.
Mang Basilio gave money to my father and after that Mang Basilio asked me to place all six wolves, I carry in my back in the compartment of his car, after I finished placing all wolf's in his car compartment he approached me and said.
"Be glad that you have your father we talk about you earlier your father said to me all your short comings but he said even you have a lot of shortcomings he still loves you so always follow his command and orders because that's for your own good and take a shower your whole body are covered in red and your stink too."
Nods
(Mang Basilio go to his car and say a good bye)
Deep Breath
Soft exhale
Mang Basilio Sims like get brainwashed like the other he don't know what the true characteristic of my father, but in the other hand yes my father really love if Mang Basilio and other people in our district concept of love is get punched and kick and slap every time you done wrong, Yeah he really good of loving me.
" Hoy useless go inside in our house and take a shower and after that start cooking! "
Nods
I go inside of our house and take a bath after that I cook a few hours I done in cooking and a few minutes my family ah.. except me start to eat I look them in distance and all of them are happy.. I guess I really don't belong to this family..
After they finish they meal my mother call me and said.
" Hoy useless eat now and hey after you finish your meal wash the dishes too do you understand! "
Nods
I go to table and start eating and, I keep thinking why all of them call me that way i.. have a name and that is.. that is..
Teardrops
Even me i.. forgot my own name the only time I remember it, Are when I'm in school wearing my school ID, Damn I'm only wasting my tear's I need to go in wash the dishes.
Few minutes past
I finally finished washing the dishes, After that I clean my wounds and gives thank to Creator that finally my back touch the futon, while in bed I keep thinking if I die can Creators give me chance to get reincarnated like what its said in holy passage and after I get reincarnated can my face and intelligence change too, but as I think of it.
I realized something that makes it impossible for someone like me due to the fact that I... kill a lot of His/Her creation both land, air and water I guess named it I probably kill it, I don't think the creator gives me chance, since I five and now that I sixteen I kill equivalent of... Huh I think the number of wild animal I slay is can't count in hand I think I go straight to hell due to killing a lot of His/Her creation.
Knock Knock
A soft tapping in the door
Who's that?
"It's me your big sis I'm going to open the door alright"
Big sis what are you doing here...?
"Um you see I can't fall asleep maybe you could help whisper let's close the door and lock it for privacy (grim smile)"
Um what do you need?
"Um I need you to satisfy me(grim smile)"
She suddenly grabbed my hands and pulled my body towards her and hugged me and forced my lips to hit her I pushed her away but immediately pulled me back to her and said.
"What are you doing you want me to report your deep wound to our father? Do you want him to put Chile in your wound?"
"Or worse he might pull you out again in your room and force you again to sleep outside, Do you want that to happen?'"
She's always like this she always find a way to exploit me manipulate me to do what she want it's always a command for me to do what she wants.
Nods of disagree
"Okay then (futon spring squeeze) so lay there and be good little boy got it, let me do what i want."
"Just lay down and everything will be alright, let me do what ever I want to you and everything will be alright."
She doing this to me since I'm six years old so I'm used to it.
Next Day
[TO BE CONTINUED]