My body went numb. I couldn't move or talk, just a million emotions and thoughts rushing into me. I wanted to cry out, scream, and blame her for leaving me, but at that moment, I couldn't. I sat on the nearby couch and looked at my parents and asked," It's a joke, I believe." Michael tearfully looked at me and said," Nora, it's the truth. You've got to accept she is no more." I don't know what triggered me, but I think the words 'no more' just made my tears fall. I couldn't stop and my mind went blank, yet I shouted at the top of my lungs," It's impossible, she just called me two days back. I know she is perfectly fine. She will never leave me alone". They were quiet and let me express my emotions. After a few minutes, I asked them to leave me alone as I wanted a moment to myself. I went into the bedroom and lay on the bed watching the white ceiling.
"I know it's all my fault. I had never cared so much about her, and yet here I'm crying for someone who will never come back. If I had cared to ask about her well-being, this wouldn't have happened." My mind conflicted with my heart, but even if I did so, she was never coming back. I closed my eyes and let my mind wander to all the moments we had to make me realize one thing - If I had enjoyed every single moment, even a short one, I wouldn't have regretted so much. But everything was useless as she was no more.