JUDE
Impulsive.
I've been called that once or twice in my life. It's one of the things I know that I don't try to deny. Like I don't try to deny myself a feeling, a thing I am seeking out.
It's why I am in his bed when mine is an arm away. It's why I am cuddling with him when I know now this is a cry for help on my side. Why would I do this to myself?
Why pretend to be asleep, while I am listening to his breathing even out, as his body gets heavier by the minute, feel his breath tickling my hair where his face is pressed on the crown of my head?
Why am I in Miko's bed, lying down like we are lovers when I have veiled this whole thing as friends who have to cuddle to fall asleep? I can sleep just fine alone and have been doing it my whole life.
But he needs it. He needs to be held by you to fall asleep.
Right. Let's go with that.
I know I am impulsive, never said anything about being bright or knowing what's best for me, and actually doing it.
