There always be a time and day I do feel happy and ontop of the world because, my friends always admire the love we shared, the patience,the happiness they saw within me , they always want to see me happy,
he introduced me to some members of his family,his friends, and loved ones , I was loved by all and was respected by all, knowing his family was a step and I was ready to make him mine, I was so determined that I put my all into the relationship and never allowed another man into my life.
we started becoming so distanced from each other and I tried to make things right but seems he wasn't trying enough to do that.
I seek advices from friends and loved ones, and I was told he might be cheating or he has lost the love he had for me ,I also started withdrawing and he notices and confronted me, I let him know he started it first and I don't want to force my self on him, saying those words to him broke my heart but I had to say something. and to find solution to that problem, after he started his reasons for the distance I accepted he was busy and had no time for me, and for that he make it up to me, by getting me gifts and making me happy too.
it was time to go home for holiday and I wasn't happy to leave him behind but I had no choice, as a young woman still leaving under her parents, I have rules to follow and be careful of, at home we weren't allowed to go out or anywhere, unless we have an adult with us, j went to spend time with him after my exams before going back home
it was the day to leave and i cried and was sad that am going to be far away from him for more than a month, he assured me coming to see me, and I was so happy to hear that from him.
it was holiday time and I spent it with my family and friends, it was the best holiday, we were able to be on good times together without having issues or arguements.
we talk, chat and also make love through the phone, whenever I was I let him know and same with him too, i was as if we restart our love story all over again, with so much joy, happiness and care all along, my sisters were all happy for me, I talk about me and how he made me feel happy and there were so pleased I have decided to start loving someone, hmmmmmm not until I resumed we went back from been lovey dovey to been cat and rat again, it makes me wonder maybe the distance relationship is more better than been closer to each other,
he made up more excuses and always want me to be available whenever he needs me without considering my feelings, I was hurt when he started been violent, a abuses me sexually and emotionally, whenever I decided to give up my heart always says something else, accepting those pains and cruel treatment from someone I loved and want to spend the rest of my life with, Neil has never admitted to his mistakes and shenanigans,he's always right and am wrong, I am the one to always apologize to him whenever we had an issue.
i was in the kitchen a day when i heard someone screamed my name Katie, Katie come this instance, I was scared and shivering knowing there's problem ahead that I can't escaped, but I showed bravery, and went to attend to him, getting there what I first encountered was a loud slap on my face, I couldn't believe what just happened and he hits me more than he do sometimes, I cried and tried to asked what was my offence but I wasn't given the chance too until he was satisfied with hitting me, he left me there in pains and drove out of the house,
I cried and tried to figure out what was the problem bt wasn't able to come up with any reasons, he didn't returned home that night till the next morning, I waited and was full of worries, I tried calling him his number wasn't going, I was scared and hurts.
next morning he came back with gifts and regretful remorse on his face begging to forgive and let everything go I only told him if he could tell me what my offense was I would tried and reconsidered forgiving him, and he told me it was because he saw my chats with other men, and he was triggered and never wants to lose me, I was confused and triggered by what he said ,
I once told him i have friends who are men and i don't date or have business with them just been friends nothing else,
he said he was angered by the way he tall to me and I responded,
I made him believe that, seeing that type of messages should not triggered him,I wasn't cheating and I promised not too,
I cried and felt bad because he has no trust for me after all the time we have spent together, I left his house all in the name of never to be with him I was so done with him,
i called, chats and also came to my apartment to find him but I ignored and told him I never want to have anything with him again,o so broken that I can't feel my self, I skip glasses, I never want to be around people, I was lonely and hurts,
I was on my phone scrolling on all the messages sent by my friends to know and ask what was wrong,when I heard a knock on my door, i get up from the big bed and made my way to the door, getting there I saw Neil brother standing outside, raymond was a tall dark handsome man who you will always find and see smiling and happy,I have soft spot him and decided to let him into my apartment,
hmmmmm it was a very difficult and bad day for me thou !!!