Hmmmmm when I said he's back again I meant he's here to destroy my remaining self which I won't take it likely. Using any contact in gets his hands on , the first was stated like this.
Hi mama how are you I believe my princess is fine why not let's hang out, I wanted to believe he's not the one but my might and soul said he is, I tried to ignore and more messages keeps coming,
One Sunday day I was with my lil sister when a msg popped up my screen I was mute for some minutes and she realized I wasn't concentrating on the talks, so she asked and I told her, her advice was to ignore him and block any contact he uses to msg me, my eyes was teary and heart beating faster, I buckled up not allowing the tears out ,so I distracted my self with something else not giving my mind the chance to think about anything close to him or about him but I can't the more I tried the more I want to know what his reasons for causing me pains and agony, I was so disturbed I only wanted to hear his voice but I still didn't give it way to weigh me down, I went to my room to have a nap to see if I would be ok when I woke up, hmmmm I woke up with a stress free mind smiling and feeling good, I was standing at the balcony when a black flashy car drove in the compound, thou I was told we are having a new neighbor but wasn't expecting to be a grown man we were expecting a full family,
The car packed and a bold handsome looking man came out of the car looking at his surrounding, our eyes meant and I looked away I never want to fall a victim of love at first sight again, am going to avoid that at all cost , I went back to my room to pick up my phone which was ringing non stop , A new contact calling I was so afraid of picking up. I summoned my courage and decided to pick the call, behold it's my mom who was calling to get me down stairs for dinner, I went down stairs.
Mom I think the new neighbor isn't a full family but just a man, she smiles and say yes the next neighbor told me so thou we were expecting a full family but wasn't what we plan on welcoming one person we were expecting more, good to know he's alone and would maintain the peace of the compound with causing problems to his neighbors , well he seem and looks like nice guy I hope he's what we thought he is, we all smiled and start eating our meal.
I went straight to my room after dinner to take a shower and rest on my bed, then I saw a dim light gomr the new guy room which looks like he had a woman with him I took my eyes off the room and close down my curtains I turn on music and hanged my headset on my head feeling every beat of the song, I danced a little while watching my self at the mirror while nothing was distracting me. I danced to my satisfaction was happy and at least have burnt enough calories too, well I have my self ego to keep can't let a less person take that from me ''I am who I choose to be, not what he thinks about me '' discovering my self was my first priority after the break up which almost calmed my life and freedom, I won't go back to stage any more, I said all this to my self smiling and having more confidence about my healing process, a process I don't want to take for granted, I want to fulfill all my dreams of been the best child to my parents, and loved ones, I don't want a set back ro keep draining my mental health so I did agreed with that's.
I went to take another shower because am sweating I took my shower put on another pajamas and held to bed, turn on the ac , turn off the lights and fold my self inside my blanket, having great feelings about tomorrow which I knew would be a great day for everyone, having warmth and fulfill free heart and mind.
I was about to closed my eyes when I heard aloud cry from the compound I think a neighbor must have step on something which frightened her to the point of screaming her lungs out,, hahahahaha not funny but funny,
The other neighbors ran out to see what was happening and behold it was a stray cat she step on that bite her on her leg when she stepped on him, I laughed thou from my room I can see what was going on without saying a word I went back to bed wrapping my self under the blanket,
I took my phone and started scroll on Instagram checking and liking my frds post ,not all the times i do that I only do that whenever am not sleepy and had to stay awake till it's getting to morning , I slept off like a baby whose mother nurtured to bed after breastfeeding, in my warm and cozy room which gives me the orientation and organization of mind control, I love my room because it's my save place, place I found peace,joy,and courage from.
I am so lucky to have such a place as my room which brings out the best side of me , I have the best view, and a nice spacious balcony which has two chairs and a table , a leg stretcher a little basket I always put snacks and magazines into, I read while having my snacks looking at the view of the compound and beyond, I must say I have the best room among everyone am am so happy about that !!!.