EMILY'S POV
As I got out of the cab, I have made up my mind to let go if he doesn't burge.
I sighed inwardly before stepping out of the cab, looking at the same house I have always felt as home for me…it was nostalgic.
Today's event will determine if I will come back here again or not for life.
My palms were sweating, what I'm even doing at this moment is a shameful act, something someone with low self esteem will do….it's obvuois i was that helpless.
I wore a blue gown, it highlighted my skin in a way that made me seem weak.
That wasn't intentional though, I was indeed weak and tired.
From the break to my pregnancy and the end were he told me we are done for…..it's supreising that months flee by quickly.
I walked slowly, hesitated if I should just turn back but something in me still want to try for the last time.
I knocked on the front door, I heard music and laughter coming from the sitting room, it seems I'm going to be the one to spoil that happy mood.
It took a while before the door was opened and gladly it was Janet that opened it. I didn't intend to go into their apartment in the first place.
We stood there, with fixed gaze for some time before I broke the silence.
"Mother….um sorry Good afternoon ma'am, I want to speak to you about something….I wont take your time or cause any trouble please. Can we talk outside here?." I asked nervously.
"You better not cause any trouble because clearly you reck of trouble" she walked out and closed the door behind her.
"It's about me and Dave…I hope you can help me, I have gone through a lot too. I went too far, I shouldn't have burnt his contract document….I still regret doing that till this moment. But I still want him, I don't mind being a step mother to his child…..I still love him" I said while looking down at my toes, my hands were clenched.
I was flustered.
She sneered "Aren't you ashamed?...can't you see the picture clearly?...he has moved on and even if he hadn't I won't let you guys be together…..you dont deserve my son" she warned me sternly with glaring eyes
"These were the things I saw when you guys started, I regret not tearing you guys apart then…you don't even love yourself, and you feel you can love my son enough?" She was furious, shouting at the top of her voice.
I was really embarrassed and ashamed….she was right, I don't even think what I felt for Dave from the beginning was love, my eyes were red but I didn't want the tears to fall while I am still there.
She ranted on "Even Dave himself, doesn't want you anymore, he is going to be a father soon…please let my son have peace in his life, he keeps having issues at work because of what you did"
I wanted to speak up but unexpectedly, Dave opened the door, closing following behind him was Kenny, glowing more than the last time I saw her.
I stood there alone, hurt and ashamed.
It was as if I am a clown.
As he saw me, his eyes turned cold " What are you doing here, didn't you understand what I said at the hospital then? I broke up with you for Christ sake."
Kenny just looked on as if everything happening were just a drama she was watching.
I turned to look at her and her expression stiffened for a brief moment "It seems you won…..good riddance"
She gave me a mocking smirk
I turned and walked off from their land property.
Tears were already streaming down my face but I never looked back….this time i will fix myself.
It hurts but it has become unbearable, I can't continue.
I took a cab and went home, I stood still at the entrance and glanced around the small apartment I have been living for some years, Dave's memory was in this place, I have to leave this place.
I looked at my contacts, I wanted to call Dera but we are not on a good note, I hesitated but I still dialed Leo's number.
"Hey….um, can I come stay at your place for some days until I get another apartment?" I asked anxiously
"Sure, why are you packing out of that place, it's such a nice and quiet environment, suitable for your work" he asked with concern.
"Leo…the memories there are haunting me, I let go this time" I said while I sobbed softly.
"Give me few minutes, I will be right there soon…..wait what did you just say? You are not playing pranks on me right?...you..you are really letting go this time?" He bombed me with questions.
I just laughed at said " Yes….I need to find myself now, no jokes"
Leo was ecstatic " Omg….those that mean I have a chance with you"
"Not yet Leo…not now"
"Okay"
I know he was truly sad with my response but I can't just go into another relationship after coming out from one and not just any relationship but a very toxic one at that.
I needed time to heal.
I breathed with relief this time.
My phone buzzed with a message, picking it up to check was a message from an unknown number.
It was an audio message, I shaking clicked on it, what I heard tore my heart to threads.
"Baby please be a little gentle, ahh….Leo please…yeah, just like that. Don't stop"
What was this now, it was Leo and someone….I thought he said he was waiting for me?
why was someone sending me this?
Was it his lover trying to warn me or what?
I felt a little hurt.
Was all his show of affection just to get into my pants or what.
I was furious.