Chloe did not return downstairs after the couch incident, she's hasn't even had something to eat and it's starting to worry me. I know she miss be hungry, I walk upstairs to her room and knock on her door.
Yeah, Chloe answers and I open the door and walked inside, I found her reading on her bed. Her room is clean, everything is in the right place, her books are neatly arranged on the bookshelf and her school books are stacked nicely on her desk. No clothes on the floor or the carpet.
This is something beautiful compared to my room, my room is so messy that I could hardly find my school books every time. We are two completely different people, I guess. She makes me angry because of her ignorance of things, she makes me guilty sometimes and it's scary goddamn that girl.
Hi, I was just wondering if you are hungry?, she looks at me with those blue eyes damnit, I guess she doesn't know how captivating her eyes are to me. I like blue eyes, mine are just plain dark brown. Daniel says it scares him a lot when am angry, because it gets dark like it's black.
There was this guy in school that was trying to be a bully, I got angry at him that I almost punched him in the face. If it wasn't for Daniel, I would have given him a bruise on his face. That's the time he told me I had the look in my eyes.
But every time I look into Chloe's eyes, she looks sad. It's scares me, I have never met someone so fragile and scary, I don't even know what happened to her.
It's just the way she is, and how she talks her voice trembles and she looks so small and afraid. To me it seems like she is just trying to punish herself, and she doesn't even know that it's wrong to think that way. Then i see Chloe nodding. She keeps the book on her desk.
I asked Chloe what she wants to eat and she looks surprised, at first she was uncertain and just said I should cook anything I want to eat. I said no and told her to decide for us, then finally she got confident and said egg and bacon.
That's the perfect breakfast I told her, and she had that smile on her face. The crooked kind with the fascinating look in her blue eyes. I like that look so much that I had to continue looking at her, more than I should have. It made her uncomfortable and she was blushing, which made me smile she looks so adorable.
Just like her smile and her shiny golden hair with the white tint barely showing, no matter how much I should not like her, I simply can't. There is just something about her that makes me like her, even though I barely know her.
You've been staring at me she says, without even looking at me. Her cheeks turned red after she said it, I was still looking at her while smiling. I was caught off guard, and I feel embarrassed at that moment. I never thought she would say something like that, and it's more surprising to her since she's still blushing.
Sorry I tell her and continue cooking for us, her gaze is still on me and I turn to look at her. I can see she wants something because she became nervous than usual.
Her left hand is shaking and she is biting her inner cheeks, she looks so small and it makes me more vulnerable to her. The way she is watching me makes me feel warm on the inside. This girl really knows how to make me surrender.
What? I ask, I realized I said it harshly I closed my eyes hard, I made her shrink by the tone of my voice, I open my eyes.
Am sorry I didn't mean to scare you or make you angry, it's just the way she looks at me, it makes me feel confused on the inside, the feelings are new to me and I can't seem to control much of it.
I know there was something you wanted to ask, please tell me I beg of you. I was feeling guilty because of all my actions around her lately.
I hate the way I treat her it drives me insane, she looks down at her place just playing around with her food. Oh god what if I made her close herself up for good now, or I scared her away that will make her ignore me.
Why do you seem to hate me so much? she asks, I feel my heart in my throat I really didn't expect that question. Even though I know I should, I am horrible to her and she knows everyone around us knows. There is just something about her, it is hard to explain I don't even know how to explain it to myself because I don't know what it is.
I don't hate you, I tell her and she gives me a flat smile not believing me. she starts eating her food again, after a while she finished eating, and walked into the kitchen with me on her heels.
Chloe I do not hate you, she puts the dish in the dishwasher and turns around to look at me.
It's hard to believe she says, and walk past me into the living room I stumble after her.
Hey, I say and grab her arm, she turns after she feels my touch on her arm I should pushed me back. I was stunned watching her, she looks frozen again just like she did this morning while nervous. Her eyes was locked on me but now I see guilt in her blue eyes.
That she pushed me away is kind of scary to me, because she is always calm. I think it even scared her, because I don't think she could do something like that. She hasn't moved one muscle, this is even more frightening than what happened this morning.
Chloe, I ask concerned she takes a step back but didn't even blink her eyes. I didn't mean to she says, I know I say immediately cutting her off, I know she wouldn't have done that on purpose.
I know it's my fault I shouldn't have touched you in the first place, I told her no it's not even you she says.
No you don't need to explain anything to me Chloe, you just scared me a little that's all. She opens her mouth to say something or keeps it shut again. It seems like she's fighting in her own head about what to say, she closes her mouth and then just nod, I breathe out relieved.
You don't have to tell me things you don't want me to know about, Chloe I will wait one day just know you can talk to me, she gives me that shy smile and nod again.
I think I'm going to go, she says and I nod.
I had my phone buzz in my pocket, I pick hey dad, I answer.
Hey honey how is it going? he was asking.
It's going fine and Chloe he asks?
I think she is fine, she is kind of I don't know how to say she kind of froze.
What happened? I can hear the sound of the background getting faint. How am I going to explain this, I can't tell him that she fell asleep on top of me and it's freaked her out. That will just be awkward, I can't tell him she pushed me either. That could probably mean consequences for her, I do not know how this will work but Chloe seems more fragile than someone than is harm.
We kind of talk and the kind that got a little over the line, what happened did you guys fight or something? No we didn't fight I say.
She walked away from a conversation and I followed her and held her arm,dad that she freezes when I touch her. I did not tell him about the look in her eyes that makes me want to take off everything in her head that is troubling her.
Is she okay?
I think so, it just scares me when it happens because you just stands like that for a while. I tell him, I think you should give her some time she will come around but I'm glad you guys are not fighting. And that you care about her just take it easy on her okay.
Dad calm down, I've told her that she doesn't really need to tell me about anything she don't want to talk about.
Okay that's good, but your mom is waiting for me, I love you and say hi to Chloe for me, I say bye too.